So,I have posted this on the other forum,but I just thought I should post it again,on here,cause a lot has happend between that time.
So the problem is..of course..a boy.Matthias.
See Matthias and me,we have been friends long time.And in the beginning it was just friendship,since he was dating a girl,Cara,who is now one of my friends.And they eventually broke up.And when they broke up,things between me and Matthias became different.We became closer really. I started to poke him more often and we laughed more often and really,we became closer every day.And I added him on msn.And our conversations became more..intimate and such,if you know what I mean.And I asked him out one day,and he said no,he wasn't ready for a relationship just yet.And then friday,when he signed on,I noticed he had a girlfriend.Of course I was heartbroken.I mean who wouldn't?And well the next day he told me to download a song.It's called Now you're gone by DJ Alex.And I downloaded it,and right at the moment that I was going to listen to it,he signed off.Okay,so you might think,what a loser.Well I thought the same thing.So I wanted to know why he actually sent me the song,but he never replied.
Then,at some point,he wanted to have a friends with benefits relationship,I,as stupid as I now realize it was,said yes.And I,now actually realize how stupid it was to say yes,but at that time,I didn't think.
But along the conversations that we had,things have changed.I actually completely and majorly fell head over heels for him.
And it's stupid,I know,because he has a girlfriend,but I also know,that deep down inside,he wants to be with me.In a way,what I want to know is,should I go on with it?Should I keep the faith,like Brooke keeps faith in Lucas?Or should I let him go,like Peyton was letting go Lucas?
Also,this is the last thing he said to me earlier on.
[Matthias] (L)07/03(L)Khou Van Je Sgatjj(L)Vicky'tje(L)'k Zjsg .. Wjnmk .. Nkto(L)Every Sec. Without You I Die Over And Over(L) dit :
kheb paaseitjes
translation : I have easter eggs.
[Matthias] (L)07/03(L)Khou Van Je Sgatjj(L)Vicky'tje(L)'k Zjsg .. Wjnmk .. Nkto(L)Every Sec. Without You I Die Over And Over(L) dit :
ma kheb jou wel ni..
translation: But I don't have you